惜福

我不想说，我把心里想的，都写在这里，因为我知道在外面用不着。
我可以很自然而然的去面对外面的世界。可是在这里，我就是我。
不要说我不成熟，只是我不喜欢复杂，喜欢简单。
不要以为我什么都不懂，只是我有一套做自己的方式。
毕竟别人不是我，怎会了解我想些什么。
我有很多不喜欢的事，很多不喜欢的现象，可是我不会将自己的想法灌输在别人身上。
我胆小，不喜欢现实，可是我知道现实是另外一回事。
所以，我会让自己去经历更多，去适应一切。

如果有个人，不说任何言语，不带任何问号把手伸出来。
嗯，该读书了，我要发奋图强。

Listen

我又偷偷地看了以前的 video，自己看自己，自己笑自己。我终于知道，做么这几天心情有点闷了！应该是... 最近没有什么去专心听歌，心没有寄托吧吧吧。
这首歌 super the very 好听。 gor gor 以前第一次给我听的时候，我就觉得很好听了！


When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody when the night's so long
'Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth
You love me for who I am, like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I know I'm not alone

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like a light of scope colors that cover me
All I need, every breath that I breathe
Don't ya know, you're beautiful

You appear just like a dream to me



今天看回以前写的东东，才发现自己重复重复又重复地写了一些一样的东东。看到都显掉一下。原来我每天都在想一样的东东。丢脸~ lol

Opssss......

最近爱上了写废话。滥用了这里。

我也不喜欢自己这样。其实真的很小事情，很小事情罢了。
只是最近的事情，全部一次过来，我适应不过来，变小气一点罢了。
只是我心情不好不喜欢笑罢了。没有怎样。不要被我影响。
给我时间，心。没事没事没事。X)

心锁

某人提醒了我某件事。一个就快要忘了的东西。

有时候，谁说的话，是真是假，有点难分。我知道不该太执着这些，不该执着任何人对你的好，因为世上没有完美的人。我真的知道。不能确认别人的可信度，因为我没有超能力，我不会看穿人心。头脑没有酱厉害去想很多心机，去跟人家比什么。能做的，只有保护自己。

帮自己围上一道道墙，因为里头建的，只是小茅屋。我要保护它。我身上没有什么好处给，也不会给谁。谁要谁，尽管拿。我不会稀罕不属于我的东西。不代表我没有权力去喜欢我喜欢的什么。

如果我们是同一种人，请弄我相信，因为我需要这样的人。
谁看我不顺眼，我也不在乎。 我不需要。

或许不该太轻易相信，或许有一天我会把这里封了。除非谁我值得用心。心累了，就不想执着什么了。懒惰想了。跟傻傻的人，总好过跟心机一流的人，防到累。吃大便啦。

我可以在问一个很欠打的问题吗？这世界有100% 的好人吗？阿琴听到一定会揍我。

我知道今天想多了。可能自己还不够成熟。很欠打哦？我要跟自己讲 sorry。我会试着以平常心面对。我要去找好人。谢谢。

爸爸，爸爸...

昨天爸爸生日。

爸爸，爸爸~ 我已经不去想念你们。证明我已经长大。
你的责任感让我们长大了。

爸爸，爸爸~ 我会加倍爱自己。
有一天，我要让你听到我唱最好听的一次。嘻嘻。

这是不是我心里的话？爸爸听到应该会感动。

爸爸，生日快快乐！
我在你心目中永远都不长大好吗？
你也别那么快老去好吗？

Peace and Passion

I like people who loves their life,
I like people who struggles for their dream,
I like people who serious and try their best in doing everything.

I wish I can be a person like that,
but I just can't,
because I lost my motivation, and my passion..

I like a girl called Josheen Ma. She was the Champion of Utar Model for female. She is pretty and she has her confidence. She shares her life with everyone in her blog, something positive and inspiring. Her bf is the one who always stand beside her and supports her. I wish I could learn from her, to pursue the life that I want.

 

I like them too. Sometimes, I feel that, their existence make this world wonderful. They give people hope. They want people believe that there is true love in this big world, although not everyone is that lucky, not everyone has such a chance.

I don't know whether this is true or not, whether they just pretend in front public or not. But at least they make me believe something. They teach us something that are not taught by others in the real world. We know that.

I wish I could go back to the life during my foundation,
the days when I studied for a whole day,
the days when I struggled non-stop for a week to get a better results, to improve my results.

I miss the days when brother and I cycled to outside everyday and ate together.
We ate breakfast together, we ate lunch together, and we ate dinner together.
We go kacao each other beside our room during exam.
We disturbed each other when we felt bored and when we felt hungry.
We complaint when we stressed, and joked around, laugh like hell together,
Can three of us go back to that time?
The time when we are together. It's just a simple life.

I don't like to stay with people who seems treat you nicely,
but I don't know whether it's true or not. I doubt it.
Is she selfish? Does she changed?

Most of the human are realistic, and I have no right to blame anyone.
I don't like the feeling of being cheated, seriously.
and I don't like to pretend in front of each other.
I don't like people complaint about others, in fact they do the same things as what they complaint about others.
I don't like people made promises to make sure everyone can stay in peace, after that they forgot it.

Why can't everyone think about others?
Useless to blame everything here. Useless to think about it.
Useless to speak it out if people don't think it is important.
I've to solve it by myself.
I'm gonna move house, move from this house, with my sister. =)

我很敷衍，谢谢。

一天又这样白白过了。都在补眠。zzz
最近跟了他们，因为他们思想蛮正面，很积极，所以被影响，突然也想自己像他们，对生活热爱一些。
kampar 的确给人死气沉沉的感觉。
有时也觉得，人生还真反复无常。我们是不是在追求着过程？
看到她在自己的桌子前贴着“我爱大学”， 顿时觉得，怎么会有这么cute 的人？
对我来说，cute 的定义就是：稍微与众不同，特别一点，又让人摸不着头脑。嘻嘻

这班人很善良，因为我只看到他们善良的一面。个个都几cute。
他们是我的亲人，让我有不想长大的感觉。
知道必须独立，才能成长。不能依赖。但是偏偏依赖是我的个性。 显掉啦

每次一辛苦，一累到想放弃的时候，总会想起《恶作剧之吻》里的江直树。戏很白痴，可是骗得了当时还是小妹妹的我们。如果有江直树这么一个天才在身边帮我，教我做report 就好~ 不懂几有安全感。他冷漠一点也不要紧。或是小叮当出现就好。又是依赖个性的原形毕露。lol

想在大学留下一段美一点的回忆，
可是总觉得时候还没到。感觉也不对。
对初恋有憧憬，没有错呱？只想体会那种感觉罢了。
但不能因为想而敷衍。要耐心。要用心。
oh 对！我还有很多东西想做，很多东西想的！
年轻就是本钱，哈哈哈哈

想起梁文音唱的 《情人知己》
是知己，不是情人。=)
江直树，快点出现救我啦~ 开玩笑 =.=