好消息 坏消息

好消息 :  考完试咯 ! 放假咯 ! 回我的森林咯 !

坏消息 :

1. 要不要剪短头发? 现在剪还是回来才剪?

2. 突然发觉我不是很会经营我身边的人际关系，一天到晚讲错话。haiz 不过不要紧啦。哇哈哈！开朗一点，小事一桩。

嘿嘿~看我绝情一面~

我不是好人 也不想做好人
哈哈哈 我是很绝情的

首先
我不随便可怜身边人
因为我的同情心只留给无助的残障人士
还有那些每天都在kampar oldtown骑脚车载重物的老人
好像孩子不理他们酱
以目前情形
只有他们才能引起我的怜悯之心

最近在fb看到某个小孩被油烫伤的video
我没有觉得他可怜
反而觉得他是个奇人
感动和敬佩多于怜惜

我没有像他那样的遭遇
不过以后如果不幸的事降到我身上
我一定要把他从我记忆里挖出来
提醒自己一定要像一个小孩子那么坚强

我阿公去世的时候
我没有哭
是看到妈妈哭到很惨 才跟着哭
这要怪 血联相通 母女心灵感应
我不很悲伤
因为阿公在所有孩子陪伴之下闭上双眼
很温馨
不过这事不能让我亲戚知道

我家宠物不知死了多少只
以前小时候就有哭一下
不过后来就麻木了
因为母猫生不停小猫也死不停
而且不到几个月那种
因为它们不会讲话
临死之前没有像电影情节里的角色那样
跟我讲它不舍得离开我
所以我没有哭了
 
我还目睹最残忍的事
就是母猫吃自己孩子
不过没看过程（不然会呕死掉）
我和妹妹还因此踢了母猫几脚

可能是我人生经历很少
小事就一箩箩
所以我就很绝情

结论 ：11 很绝情。

成功是失败生出来的baby

     我又失败了，阿琴也是。算一算，这个 sem 我失败了很多次一下。Audition 失败，昨天考cell bio 又失败。第一次考到酱失败。几乎是做好心理准备了。

     失败不可怕，比较可怕的是面对失败。我从去年就知道了，可是现在才领悟。因为以前有人跟我讲过，就算她考到有多差，她也不会不开心。她是成绩很好的。嗯，我相信那句话。既然人家可以酱看开，为什么我不行叻？所以我改变想法了。要学一学人家值得我学习的地方。有时不是我冷血，只是习惯以平常心去看待一些事罢了。

     
     于是我也给了妹妹一点counseling。我们一起努力。就算不及格也没什么大不了的。当做买个教训好了，自己拿来的，看我以后还敢不敢偷懒。失败的代价就是不只要去面对它，还要对它负责任，麻烦死了!  不过它又让我教了自己一些东东。

    

     人生就是这样，有很多个小点，不管是好的不好的，一滴一滴地组成。（讲人生道理）嗯也对，很多事情不是人家随时可以教你的，有时还是得自己去领悟，自己教自己。今天就到此为止。读书读书！好想唱《领悟》。XD

阿国国之经典名言

     今天我和阿国国去吃KFC哦。可是重点不是吃，而是我听到他第一次讲的话。怎么说叻？

我 ：你喜欢美的吗？

哥 ：你问什么废话？不过那个性格真的很重要。如果像那种 pattern 我就看到很讨厌（自己举列子中）

我 ：酱你几时才可以找到适合你的哦~ =.=

哥 ：你没有听过？那个LOVE的形状是酱的。你的一半（心形）一定要跟你未来的一半 fit 到刚刚好的。不 ngam 就 fit 不到了。这个世界上只有一个是可以 fit 到的，只是有一个罢了。（他在强调要 fit 到刚刚好）不一定是最好的，不过是最适合的。啊~所以一定有一个的~

我 ：哇~~酱的话你都讲得出~哪里听回来的？？真的是有够经典！很好听耶讲到~ 哇想不到你都会讲这个的咯~

哥 ：你没有听过的咩？我不懂那里看过了....（敷衍）

接下来就不是重点了。

     然后他骑着摩多又讲了很多东东。这种东东通常别人不会跟我讲的。我有说了一句话，如果没有你，我一个人傻傻的在这边一定会顶不顺。遇到这种事都不懂怎样一个人去面对。过后他讲了很多让我讲不出话的东东。因为有点感动。那一刹那有点想掉泪的感觉。不过我不爱哭，所以我不哭。是心里感动那种。这些话本来就没什么特别，不过不懂做么，现在听起来就觉得特别有意思。他今天讲的话实在是太经典了。我要把它记录下来。

“你记得以前三舅母跟我们讲过什么吗？出到外面什么人都有。以后你遇到更恐怖的人的时候，你就会觉得以前只是小case 。你有没有想过面对外面这些东西，有想死的感觉？” “ 我就算几辛苦我都不会想要死的咯。”

“ 我跟你讲，很多时候，等你熬过现在，以后就没有什么了的。” 

“我知道自己每天乱乱讲话，讲话没有经过大脑。不过就算知道了还是会犯嘛。” “你看那些科学家，投资家就算很多经验了，还不是会有失手的时候。慢慢学嘛。”

“ 这个世界上只有自己的家人才是真正可以相信的。好像爸爸妈妈还有你们酱。你想一下，爸爸妈妈养到我们酱大，一定不会害我们的嘛。他们一定做什么都是为我们好。”

     我真的觉得上天对我很好。我就算全世界的人都不信，我都知道自己有谁要信。就算他骗我，也不会伤害我。我觉得我比起那些做自己做到不懂要信谁，甚至不懂自己有谁要信的人真的好很多。

     我懂她虽然人冲动了一点，不过也是怕被伤害的。我看过了。我看过她怎样去全心全意对待一个朋友然后她怎样对她。阿琴不要怕，虽然我很笨，不过你以后做什么姐姐一定信你。

今天真的是长气了一点。

What I scare actually? Lol

     I don't scare to be alone. I don't scare to grow up because there are two person who getting older and older still waiting me to grow up. They already faced this world for us for so many years. Now its time for us to learn how to face everything. They will need us to face everything with them when they are not capable to do everything.

     Despite there are too many things we have to face and not everyone seems to be dependable but I have to believe that I can do it better. When there is nobody I can trust, at least I have to trust myself. People always say something according to their feeling without thinking much. When you realize that you're saying something wrong or you trust someone you shouldn't trust, don't be afraid because you are still the one you think who you are. As our thinking becomes more complicated, we have to make it becomes wise.  Don't scare don't scare. There are still many people trust you. Yea I know yamapi will be one of them although we always quarreling. And I know someone will appear someday. I will wait you but I'm not gonna find you purposely. I also don't know what I wrote. Lol

PS : 如果朋友之间没有信任这两个字 ，那做朋友还有什么意义？（我太悲观了）=.=

A word of TRUST more than anything

     Trusting and believing are really important between each others especially among family members and friends. I am the kind of person who stubborn in this matter. It's really takes time for me to believe someone. As I decided to trust someone, I won't doubt that person even whatever he or she does for me. But once I realize that I shouldn't let me to trust someone anymore, then whatever he or she says, it doesn't meant to me at all.

     No one likes to be cheated or treated as a fool. Same with me. However, joking around or kidding still can be accepted. I don't like the feeling of being doubted by others, especially when the eyes look at you with a doubting face. Sometimes we have to face with these faces when people don't understands about your personalities.

     There are two kinds of friends. The first one will be your true friend who treat you with their true heart, treat you as their friend and stay by your side without hoping anything from you, without any motive. Sometimes they might cheat you, but they won't do something hurts you. They won't do anything you don't like to someone you care and they are worthy for you trust. The other kind of friend will be the one who are worthless for you to think and do anything for them. I also don't want to talk more about this. I just know that I've seen how this kind of "friends" do something hurt my sister and my friend long time ago. So I "anti" this kind of person in my heart. haha.

     I am a lucky girl because I still have my brother and sister beside me. I have my best friends and my housemates who trust me and help me whenever I need a helping hand. I don't need anyone to say or do anything special for me. I just need someone who trust me. Who ever I can doubt, but not for my baba, mama, and my brother & sister. I know who should I trust and believe because I trust my feeling. If people don't trust me or cannot be trusted, never mind I won't waste my time by doing something to hurt them. I will just stay away from them. I know I will have to face with these kind of person one day. So let me just ignore them quietly. =)

我喜欢 vs 我不喜欢

我喜欢吃ABC
但我不喜欢吃太冰的东东
我喜欢养打架鱼
但我不喜欢看它们打架
我喜欢自己不要太复杂
但我不喜欢自己有时做傻婆
我喜欢做傻事
但我不喜欢人家看到

我喜欢看别人谦虚的样子
但我不喜欢看别人自以为是的傻样
我喜欢看别人有料得来又很低调的
但我不喜欢看别人虽然有料却做到很故意
我喜欢看别人克服障碍 重获自信的样子
但我不喜欢看别人输不起的样子
我喜欢看别人因为感动而哭的样子
但我不喜欢看别人因为悲伤或挫折而哭

我喜欢内敛的人
但我不喜欢他们收完在心里不讲
我喜欢有自信的人
但我不喜欢自大又爱看扁人家的臭家伙
我喜欢热心的小瓜
但我不喜欢心机重的大瓜
我喜欢敢做敢为的人
但我不喜欢鬼祟且不负责任的小子

呃，大概没有了。
想到再加一加。
如写得太直请原谅。